mediocre mama: I miss my dad

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Sunday, December 16, 2012

better to burn out

Big birthday weekend. Preparations began on Thursday with these two and their new paints from Grandma KK.

Lennon said:

"I'm going to paint lots of tiger stripes on this one because Dad likes beasts."

Then Karic showed up fresh from finals and joined us in celebrating Tod's birthday. And then watched our kids all weekend so we could leave our kids all weekend.

The only picture we have to document the getaway. Ate a lot and had uninterrupted conversation. I even slept in until 8.

Sunday night we celebrated my dad's birthday at home. He spent the first five years of his life in Japan. One of his favorite dinners was Gyoza. I grew up making and eating this regularly; it was cool to see my kids do the same. He would've wanted us all together, eating and laughing.

When I feel sad about losing him I try to remember that he never lost his independence or his dignity. We never had to put him in a home or watch him fade away.

"It's better to burn out...than to fade away."

- Neil Young

Happy Birthday to two of the best guys I know.

[Birthday photo courtesy of Tod's sister Ali. Nailed it.]

Thursday, November 3, 2011

more kites

While we were in California we spent a day at Huntington Beach. Our family visited that same beach three years ago when I was pregnant with Larry. I think I wanted to go back to remember being there with my dad.

We had a couple kites in our trunk so the boys spent the afternoon flying them. It reminded me of the first time Lennon flew a kite the week my dad died. And how in my last conversation with him I told him all about it and he was so proud. This recent day on the beach, for one of the first times since he died, I felt like maybe he really was nearby. It would've made him so happy.

Then: